You banned yourself for a week, and I really appreciated it. Do it more often, consider it permanent.
As always, I'll speak up or shut up whenever I feel it's right...but it all depends on what's going on around me. Heightened activity on the board is always the perfect ingredient. It's all I really want and I've said that before. But I'll be honest...a lot of the time, it's extemely difficult for me to come in here as a "mature" and "sophisticated" member when there's hardly anything going on. Maybe that's something I need help with.
Everyone else is allowed to post stupid shit in here. You aren't. I'm just going to shit on you until you leave or you get banned permanently. I need a little distraction every now and then, and you, my pasty, fucked up, twisted little friend, are it.
So, ok...you're just gonna troll me then. Cool. Just wanna be on the same page and know where you're coming from, that's all. As long as I'm able to defend myself, I'm good.
Let me make this completely clear to you. Ars doesn't want to ban you because you haven't broken any rules. However, I know he's sick of your shit. I, on the other hand, am not going to continue to let you use this board as your toilet. You come in here, dump shit all over it and think nothing of it. I like this place. I like the people here. I like the band. I may be mean sometimes, but I am, typically, only mean to people with thick skin. You use this board as your own personal MySpace. You make stupid ass threads that only you use on a regular basis. You post pictures of shit no one here cares about.
And you don't think that goes the same way with me when it comes to other people? It's really all about an individual's own perspective of which posts and threads are appealing to them and which ones aren't. Do you ever find me complaining about all of your Failbook posts or your auto-correct phone posts or whatever they are? Never. I simply move on. All of the politics talk? Personally, reading it makes me feel like my brain is rotting but you know what? I still respect the hell out of it, simply because people are so passionate about it. In the end, I'm all about letting (and even encouraging) people (to) post whatever they wanna post. There's always the Ignore option.
You antagonize members and lash out at them randomly.
I don't antagonize them, I simply tell them how I feel. It comes from the heart and that's how much I care. I can't help it if they feel antagonized. I'm not them. Besides, a lot of the time, I feel antagonized as well. And the rare times that I do lash out at people (remember that I'm nice to people on here a lot more than I am mean), it's not random. There's a reason for it. And I explain myself thoroughly whenever I, personally, feel that I've made a mistake or done something wrong. Whether or not people choose to care and read it is up to them. I know where I stand and for the most part, there's nothing wrong with anything I say or post in comparison to what other people say or post on here, and I refuse to be a victim of any kind of delusional guilt anymore. That shit was a product of my abuse growing up and I've flushed it down the toilet for good. I'm finally where I want to be and the view is pretty fucking nice, I must say.
You're the reason several members leave and never come back.
I'd really like some proof on that. And surely if these people had talked to me beforehand, everything would've been patched up nicely as they would see it was all just a misunderstanding. Time is a healer too. The fact that they never let me know that I'm personally responsible for them leaving shows that they must not've cared that much. And even if I am responsible, what makes you think the reason for my own behavior isn't at least partially dependent upon the actions (or lack thereof) of them or other people? It goes both ways.
You even save pictures of people on your hard drive, and while peoples pictures end up being seen by strangers on the internet anyway, it is EXTREMELY off-putting to have someone tell them "I have a picture of you that you posted 3 years ago, from a thread that's long gone, saved to my hard drive." The fact that you don't understand why that disturbs people boggles my fucking mind.
I have a heart. Besides, I would personally find it rather flattering myself. Do you honestly think that if I was doing it in the "disturbing" or "creepy" way you perceive me to be doing it in, that I'd actually tell everyone publicly that I'm doing it? I wear my heart on my sleeve and you should know that by now. I save the pictures for the sake of memories. Looking down the road 20 years from now? Just stumbling across the pictures of some of the members? Priceless. And all it takes is a couple simple clicks of the mouse. While you (or other people) may think that I'm obsessing over the pictures I save and spend every waking minute of my life masturbating over them, all I really do is save them and move on. I'm a huge collector of a vast amount of media, ranging from anything to everything. Don't let it go to your head and think it's just strictly Traversing Forum Member Pics.
The only reason it may seem that the pictures of people on here are of more importance to me than they really are (the example you gave above) is the fact that I have a solid memory. Especially when it comes to Traversing. This is one of only two places on the internet that I choose to socially interact with people on a regular basis, simply because of how much dredg's music means to me. It doesn't matter who else is here, who stays or who leaves. I choose to be here and stay here, strictly because of the band.
I'm going to use this status to fuck your day up, since this board is so "important" to you.
The most you can do is annoy me at this point. The history of this board has already fucked my months up...forget about my days. But miraculously, my heart and soul somehow found a secret hidden trapdoor or some shit. Not quite sure how it all happened, but half of me has transcended spiritually more than you could ever probably imagine was possible for a human being before death. Again, as long as I'm able to defend myself, I'm good.
You claim to hate Facebook, but this is what you use this board for. Save us some trouble make yourself one.
You're missing the whole point of WHY I hate Facebook. I'd much rather have everyone else LEAVE Facebook/Twitter and clutter up this board with their own self-indulging posts. For real, too. No lie. Joining the pop culture monstrosity that is Facebook would be like suicidal paralysis for me. No thanks.
Go find a shrink and or a math teacher as soon as possible
Dude...spiritually? You have no idea how much of a mathematical genius I came to be. And I don't even try, it just naturally comes to me. And you wanna know what's money? I don't even have an ego about it. It makes me incredibly giddy to the point of where it might sicken some people...but I don't have an ego about it. If you were in my shoes, you'd understand.
And it's no mystery that I have OCD. Proud of it too. Gives my other half a chance to let loose and have fun! =)
And I do still see a therapist every couple months or so, but therapy can't help...I'm too stubborn. There comes a point in time when you realize you're ahead of your time and just have to go with your gut and follow your heart, no matter what the consequences might be down the line. So for the time being, all I really do with her is shoot the shit, since there's nothing really that wrong with me anyway...even though it might seem otherwise. My mom still wants me to go, so I do it for her. Honestly, I've never felt more clearheaded in my life. The only problem is that I have so much to give to people, but none of it comes out unless they ask for it...which is very rare.
I didn't know where else to put this... But check out what the new Mayor of Kansas City's son is up too... There's a quote in there that is absolutely gold...
Do you ever find me complaining about all of your Failbook posts or your auto-correct phone posts or whatever they are?
I'm the motherfucker here.
I don't have the time it takes to recover from the day
I sit and moan and mope and groan and never have my say
A crown of thorns from which is born a little baby bird
To fly away and have its day is nothing but absurd
I actually think those were my answers. That could explain the internal error I got. I finished mine, though. Maybe you can try again.
I don't have the time it takes to recover from the day
I sit and moan and mope and groan and never have my say
A crown of thorns from which is born a little baby bird
To fly away and have its day is nothing but absurd
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